oh my gosh my brain!!! i have been studying forever and a day. but, the 3rd patho test has come and gone. and my brain needs a break before the 4th (1 week from now...not a big break. really, just about an hour break because i have quizzes the next 2 days, a patho paper due the day before the patho test, a health assessment test the day after, and a nursing topics quiz the next day. oh, and then death the day after that.).
i don't have a tv here. and i've been doing ok with that. but then superbowl sunday rolled around and i was feeling pretty sad. i was sitting at my desk studying (as i did allllllll weekend) and i kept getting texts about the pug doritos commercial. and i was feeling left out. then, it hit me: i've never not watched the superbowl before. so then, not only was i feeling sad and left out, but i felt awkward. i mean, i'm no joe sports, but i enjoy watching football. it's exciting. and watching the superbowl is a tradition. missing it is like missing your mom's birthday. if you don't at least call your mom on her birthday, you get a weird feeling inside you. so sunday was sad and weird.
also, when you get on facebook and see 10 billion posts about yellow and green or yellow and black or christina aguilera messing up the national anthem (still love her though) or the halftime show, you wanna be in on it a little bit. you don't want to miss the live action. i mean, if you were fixing a plate of nachos the moment jacket jackson's nipple graced the screen, that's it. you missed it. you don't get to say that you actually saw it (i do). and i missed all of sunday's moments that could've been (although it doesn't sound like there were many). the one thing i definitely don't want to miss is the oscars. i'm going to need get a tv for that one...or make a friend that will let me sit on their couch in my pajamas all night while drinking wine and judging celebrities.
ok, speaking of facebook and no tv...
since i don't have a tv, i watch what i want online. so, i'm watching how i met your mother (btw: i never thought how i met your mother would make me cry, but somehow the last 2 did. i love that show.) and an advertisement comes up. a guy and a girl are standing on a sidewalk and they awkwardly kiss. the girl goes inside and the guy gets in his car. he presses a button on his rearview mirror AND THE REARVIEW MIRROR GIVES HIM THE GIRL'S FACEBOOK STATUS UPDATE (it said, "best first date ever")! WHAT THE WHAT!? c'mon technology. leave us alone. and why couldn't homegirl tell him that to his face? now the whole world knows about their intimate first date? and of course, there will be comments under that post. and yadah yadah. i've been contemplating leaving facebook for a while now and this makes me want to leave more! (unfortunately, i don't think i can. when i became my cohort's representative, i made a facebook group and people use it. a lot. it might be weird not being in that group, being the representative and all. but i still WANT to leave. p.s. if anyone knows of a facebook group type thing that's independent, let me know.)
why do i want to leave facebook? there's just too much going on. there are too many updates. too many pictures. too many distractions. too much junk. mostly about people that i haven't seen or spoken to since june 2003. and most of them weren't even my "friends" in high school! it's just addicting. it's like reality tv. you don't have to look at or read any of it, but you just can't help yourself! you can't turn your head! and i know, i post on facebook. i put up pictures,i update my status, i write on walls and i'm being a hypocrite. but i'm so used to it and you can't help being apart of it. and it's that addiction thing again! can an alcoholic just straight up stop drinking? no! i want to stop. i want to read a book instead of spend an hour looking at a friend of a friend of a person who i sat next to but never talked to in history in 10th grade's photo albums. i want to be able to take a picture not contemplate, hmm, is this facebook worthy? that's probably because of my own self control issues (and nosiness/stalker tendencies. there's not denying it. every girl has them), but i think everyone in the world has these issues as well in one form or another. even getting my iphone is semi-regrettable. it's great for facetime, recording lectures (best voice recorder ever btw), and looking up unknown information that you want to know about but would forget all about by the time you got home if it weren't for the internet on your iphone being at your fingertips. but, i'm also constantly checking my email, looking up things that i don't need to be looking up, and, yup, checking facebook! ahhhhh! and if i were to be away from my phone for a day...ohh, the withdrawal convulsions i would experience. even the tv thing. if i knew that i could have a tv to watch one tv show and perhaps one newscast a day, i just might get one. but, no, that sucker would probably be on all of the time. i'm not a very disciplined person. i'm very, very easily distracted. i'm working on that though. but, i wonder how much more learning i could get done if all of these bad boys weren't around...
so, to round it out. i have a love/hate relationship with most things technology. right now, i'm really hating it because it seems to be taking up my entire life (right up there with nursing school, but nursing school is productive). perhaps if it stopped snowing (pleaseee weather gods, make it stop snowing soon) i could go outside and enjoy a real life. till then, it's me against technology. oh, and, if you are reading this and you have/will get/are thinking of getting that facebook car mirror feature thingy in your car, tell me now so i can never speak to you again.
and now i say thanks for reading and don't be mad at me. i warned you.
CHALLENGE: i challenge mark zuckerberg to shut down facebook for one week (even one day, but a week would be more interesting) and let's observe what happens.
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